love..

this past wknd was cyn & paul's wedding and it was absolutely beautiful. i guess since i'm friends with both the bride and groom, the wedding was especially touching and lovely in my eyes. i hope they will have a wonderful marriage ahead of them.. and a fantastic honeymoon.. teehee..

finding that special person that you want to be with is hard and rare but when you do, it's absolutely wonderful. isn't that's why God created man and woman together? brillant plan. "it is not good for man to be alone." brillant! thinking back to the movie 'when harry met sally' and harry said that men and women can never just simply be friends and i have always beg to differ but now i think i can understand a bit better where he is coming from. however, i think his statement should be revised to men and women cannot be purely best of friends because shouldn't your significant other be your best friend/companion too? by having another really close friend in the opposite sex, there is emotional investment/attachment that could be unhealthy. as harry explains it:

"Yes, that's right, they can't be friends. Unless both of them are involved with other people then they can. This is an amendment to the earlier rule, if the two people are in relationships, the pressure of possibilty of involvement is lifted. That doesn't work either because what happens then is the person you're involved with can't understand why you need to be friends with the person you're just friends with. Like it means something is missing from their relationship and "why do you have to go outside to get it?". Then when you say, "no no no no, it's not true nothing's missing from the relationship", the person you're involved with then accuses you of being secretly attracted to the person you're just friends with, which we probably are, I mean, come on, who the hell are we kidding, let's face it, which brings us back to the earlier rule before the amendment which is men and women can't be friends." -harry from when harry met sally

who knew you can learn so much from movies?!

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i was looking over some of my friend's convo pix and it's really crappy that i couldn't convocate with all my classmates & friends. so for my actual convo, the ppl that is going to be in london, you guys better come and take lots of pix with me!!!

somewhere out there..

on this fair-weather day, my fellow classmates have convocated while i sat here and stuffed envelops like a monkey. there's a very likely possibilities that i could get off work early but i have no one to spend this beautiful day with. i don't want to go to my empty house to 'think'. alone with thoughts is not a good idea.

i'm so absent minded. the moment i left the store yesterday, i thought xyz more things to get. i'm a genius.

it's during times like these that you will know who your friends are and those that care for you. it's sad when you realize how few you actually have.

the unexpected

the unexpected always have a way to throw us off. even if we have mentally prepared ourselves of the inevitable, the timing of it can still easily knock us off our feet and trigger whatever emotion we tried to lock up so desperately.

glad to read on my lil cousin's page that she was surrounded by friends and people. i guess it helps to cushion the pain and makes it easier to deal. i think i'm the opposite.

i rather curl into a fat ball and sleep. actually, i think it's just the drugs talking. the only person that i would talk to about this is leaving on a jet plane tmr and won't be back for a week. by then, it is very likely that i just simply refused to talk about it. i guess i tend to grief in silence and try to occupy my mind. my cough-up-a-lung-when-i-speak comes in a very convenient time, no?

up in the air..

since someone *ahem* *dor* complained that i don't blog anymore. here i am. i'm not freewriting though [sorry dor!]

i haven't had much time to myself [perhaps other than that 2 hr nap last sunday afternoon] and i don't foresee any free + relaxing time coming up. things keep changing/happening at the last minute and i'm so physically tired to deal with it. bleh.

i can't wait till friday night so i can sleep in. woohoo! i'm sleep-deprived again and i'm not feeling so good. boo. i want to go home and sleep!

you know what sounds really good right now? a week in cuba. the beach, the ocean, the sun, the wind. oh how i miss thee!