since i'm at my prime of procrastination, why not blog a little? :)
i don't think it has kicked in that i'm done with school. it still feels like i'm in summer mode [except the brisk weather]. i wonder when will it finally kick in for me but i'm sure it won't be a pretty sight!
it's a gorgeous day out despite being only 8 degrees out so i took the chance to bask in the sun flowing into the kitchen. reminds me back in the day when i first came here and how those autumn days are so beautiful. too bad my sunflowers are all droopy now.. but there were so lovely!
you know what's very loserish? drive to the corner burger hut place to find tons of people waiting inside just to drive back home because i dressed so bumalicious. oh yes. i drove for 1.3km for no apparent reason but to freeze in a cold cold car. hmmm..
on the real, i need to get myself to be more positive.. i know i'll never be those happy-go-lucky people [and i'm sure ppl will miss my anger hilarious-ness] but, i think it's healthier that way. rid of negativity and bring on the goodness! half full or half empty? i say.. just feel that thing up to the rim!!! hahaha..
ok, i think that's enough randomage. time to crack it down... until i finish my download that is. *smiles*
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is it just me or is it really frustrating to read someone's blog that jumps all over the place and doesn't make much sense? or they are describing something so cryptic that you feel like you've read nothing at all.
i just don't get it. if you are going to write, then why write it such a way that the reader won't understand it at all?
Friday, September 29, 2006
Monday, September 04, 2006
staying afloat..
i've been rather lazy writing here and i guess since there are few readers to begin with, what difference does it make anyway? but the original purpose of this space was for my own release of inner thoughts. so here i am back at it again.
labour day. for the past 4 years, this was a day filled with swirlwind activities of packing, traveling, unpacking and settling down for another year. this year has been a quiet one, no stress in doing the last minute checks and running out of the house, no massive loads of groceries to jam into cooler bags. just me and the city. people always say that it doesn't quite hit you until september rolls around and everyone has gone back and i guess it has hit me. i miss it already. the apartment, the environment, the comfort, the purpose. as summer comes to an end, my lack of it all is staring right back at me without anything else to distract me.
so what is it now? i do not know. it is hard to stay positive at all times, especially when everyone is asking you the same questions. i do not have an answer, not the faintest idea of it all. so instead, i will smile with my head up high and retreat to nurse in the quietness.
sometimes, it is hard to convince yourself even with all the knowledge in your head. all you can do is cling onto the Faith. what else is there afterall if i don't even have that?
'wake me up when september ends..'
labour day. for the past 4 years, this was a day filled with swirlwind activities of packing, traveling, unpacking and settling down for another year. this year has been a quiet one, no stress in doing the last minute checks and running out of the house, no massive loads of groceries to jam into cooler bags. just me and the city. people always say that it doesn't quite hit you until september rolls around and everyone has gone back and i guess it has hit me. i miss it already. the apartment, the environment, the comfort, the purpose. as summer comes to an end, my lack of it all is staring right back at me without anything else to distract me.
so what is it now? i do not know. it is hard to stay positive at all times, especially when everyone is asking you the same questions. i do not have an answer, not the faintest idea of it all. so instead, i will smile with my head up high and retreat to nurse in the quietness.
sometimes, it is hard to convince yourself even with all the knowledge in your head. all you can do is cling onto the Faith. what else is there afterall if i don't even have that?
'wake me up when september ends..'